day 4 – subtle changes

michael has suggested that I try for a less police line up approach to my pictures.  so, for at least today, i’m going to humor him.

it think maybe this one has a bit more of a game show host feel to it.

anyway, the spot on my forehead is definitely reacting the strongest.  it’s discolored and raised and it’s tender.  the other circled places are turning pink – the spot on my jaw that’s turning pink isn’t wear the AK is, but not surprising that I have more than what we could see.  I’m still nauseous and I still have a headache.  I’m also now itchy, but no horrid discomfort.  I know it’s still early days, but so far so good.

 

good news and new news

good news: stitches are out. pathology is back. margins are clear. makes me happy.

new news: full body skin check done today. more spots. one, another basal cell most likely – the other, a very troubling mole. both to be removed next week. then another week to wait for biopsy report. blah. oh, and the mole? it’s on my buttocks. i’m thinking stitches there might make sitting difficult.

other news: still no pui.

margins?

it was bigger than she thought. next friday i return to get the stitches out and she should have the pathology report back so we’ll know if the margins are clear. that’s the result we want. if they aren’t clear it means she didn’t get it all.

spf not enough

i had this little growth on my upper lip. and because of all the unprotected sun exposure i’ve had and the basal cell carcinoma i had removed from my left shoulder 10 years ago i was pretty sure it wasn’t just nothing. and i was right. it was a squamous cell carcinoma. a small one. and it has now been frozen (ouch, that hurts) off my lip. and here’s where i share maybe my biggest – and certainly vainest – fear. that my face will be horribly disfigured by skin cancer. you know, one day there will be something, that in order to get, they will have to dig deep and go wide. and the scarring will be bad. so the doctor and i discussed how to get this thing off my lip and she listed all the options, freeze it (least invasive), scoop it, cut it (most invasive). and i was more than willing to just have it cut off. it’s small, it would leave a very small scar and i wouldn’t have to fear that it isn’t completely gone (a little bitty scar doesn’t worry me, it’s the what if we missed part of it and we made it mad by poking at it so it’s gonna go hay wire and get all aggressive that has me worried). but we opted for freezing it (because it is so small) and keeping an eye on it.

this morning i go back to have a basal cell carcinoma, not as small, removed from my right shoulder. after it is removed and i get some stitches they will send it to the lab to check the margins and be sure they got it all.

so where am i going with all of this? just a friendly reminder to wear sunscreen and a hat. and, also, i guess i’m going to have to say it, “you were right, dad” he was always asking, telling, nagging, harping at (you get the idea) me to wear sunscreen and a hat, but because i was a teenager and immortal and oh so much smarter than him, i didn’t. and dad, fyi, this isn’t a good time to say, “i told you so.”