one of the things i’m looking forward to in colorado is making a home for our family.
i currently have three things hanging on walls in my house and they are all in odd locations because that’s where the nail or screw just happened to already be and that got me thinking…
when we moved to thailand we assumed we’d be here a long time. a really long time, but we’ve never had a timeline. we didn’t really know how long we’d be here when we arrived and each year came with either the promise of another year or the threat that we could be moving. that makes it hard to create a home. i’ve never put a nail into a wall here. if something happens to be hung it’s because there was already a nail in place to hold it. for christmas decorations we used temporary tape type things. nothing permanent. nothing that left a hole that would require filling in when we left. we’ve lived in three houses here and i’ve painted one room. the kitchen in the current house. but it still doesn’t feel like my kitchen. it’s just a borrowed kitchen i’ve painted yellow.
a while ago (while i was cooking christmas dinner) michael and i had a fight over a ladle. i was cooking and i commented that i would be glad to not see this particular ladle once we moved. he said that we should take it with us, a new ladle would cost money that we didn’t need to spend. his statement might be true, but my only thought was that this ladle belongs in a kitchen that is in a house that’s never been our home (i also thought ladles are cheap and if i want a new ladle i’ll get a new ladle.) i think it might have been the first time we had to think about our return being more than just a move. while a lot of the steps are the same as the moves we’ve made in the past – making to do lists, packing boxes, arranging logistics… all that fun stuff – there’s something different on the other end. something that i’m not totally ready to embrace, but something that i know will be good.
i’m looking forward to making a home. i’m going to paint walls (lots of walls, but not all the walls) and i’m going to hang pictures.