lonely whiner

“loneliness is the first thing which God’s eye named, not good.” – john milton

“friendship is unnecessary, like philosophy, like art. it has no survival value; rather it is one of those things that give value to survival.” – c. s. lewis


the other day i was blog hopping, i’m sure i had numerous other productive things i could should have been doing, but since i was occupied with sliding down into the pit of dispair, i didn’t feel like doing any of them. and i came across this post by trapped under something heavy. (a blog name i love, because who doesn’t love when harry met sally.) and as i read i stopped sliding and started hurtling. hurtled right on down into the depths. i miss having my plans preempted by all kinds of very, very important diversions that having friends brings along. i miss sitting in someone else’s house, having a cup of coffee or a glass of wine or a margarita or all three and feeling just as comfortable as i do in my own house. i miss having friends who open the door and come in as they’re knocking. i just miss friends.

7 thoughts on “lonely whiner

  1. I miss seeing you everyday after school and catching up as we wait for the kids , I miss calling for a quick something and then talking to long, I miss seeing you sunday mornings, I miss your Laughter!
    Hang in there! i have been there (not thai land) but to the depths I am praying for you!
    Love you and miss you

  2. Visit my blog to see the special award you’ve been given – Jenn


    Hang in there. You are not alone. I joined a ton of yarn swaps when I was in “the depths” and I’m having a wonderful time meeting new people online and exchanging yarn. It definitely isn’t the same as having those close ties, but it helps. Leave a comment on my blog if you are interested in some swap ideas!

    Is there an American Consulate where you are?

  3. Wish I could offer more than a cyber-hug.

    Hang in there! Oh, and try not to hit anyone else. 🙂 Remember, you’re the “face of democracy!”

  4. Hey! I was perusing your blog site, marveling at your new set of circumstances, when I came across this entry, and there I was! Thank you so much for the linky love. Im sorry you are having a tough time of it right now, but Im sure things will get better. And while your friends may not be there, you know they are still friends, regardless of where they are.

    One of the beautiful things about the internet is that you can poor a cup of coffee and chat with anyone anywhere in the world. Friends new or old! So, pull up chair! 🙂

  5. i miss you so much too. i just didn’t know how much until you left, as the old saying goes. i miss our catching up on EVERYTHING starbucks weekends and sushi weekdays. you are one of my greatest friends of my life. your friendship runs deep into my being.

    there are so many wonderful, godly people in my life. you were the first to make a difference in my path. i don’t think i ever told you. i owe you so much, both you and bH. you gave me faith that people could actually believe in god and truly walk that path and not be hypocritical.

    i thought you would always be ‘up the road’. i’m cool with this little bump in the road, our paths will meld again soon. i am a great believer that friends are friends no matter how many miles apart. that friendship blossoms, and the roots go deeper in absence. love you!

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